Médecins Sans Frontières

I'm called by you Lord. Walk with me down that journey. It's not going to be easy, I know. But your grace is more than enough for me.

Mum, you're just so unreasonable, paranoid, and always acting self-righteous.

God, why are you making it so hard on me?

Sighhhhhhhhh. So much things to do. So little time. My mum's right, I'm sacrificing too much.

ODAC

Life's getting more complicated and busyyy! MYE's over and so is OT. OT was freaking awesome and I'm really looking forward to OCIP this november! God, I really need help. Failed bio. And so is gp and econs. Screweddd wheeee.

So much things happened and so many things learned.

VJC ODAC, the best decision I've ever made. (-:

"Return to Caesar what is Caesar's and to God what is God's."

Be back in Singapore on 5th June! Hope OT's funn! (:

Mark 10:28-31

Peter spoke up and said to Jesus, "We have given up everything to follow you."

Help me to follow you not only when the Sun is shining brightly, when the crowds are cheering, but also when I am persecuted and weak.

"Many who now are first will be last, and the last, first."

Help me to be the last, Lord, help me to lead by serving, by caring for my neighbours, because you said that the greatest are those who are humble and servile.

Mark 10:17-27

"Go and sell all you have and give the money to the poor and you will have riches in heaven, then come and follow me."

Help me not to be attached to the material things, status, wealth and recognition in this world, Lord, but to always seek your kingdom and the riches stored in heaven. Grant me a heart of sacrifice to offer my energy, material things and service to the people around me. For our riches belong to the poor. We have status, riches and talent to help our neighbours. I pray that the gifts that you haven given me may be given to those around me through me.

Keep using me as your instrument, o Lord, that your work may be fulfilled in this world.

Sometimes I wish I can turn back the clock and avoid the stupid mistakes that I made.
To the person who made me lose so much confidence in myself, screw off yea? I would really appreciate it if you don't poke your stupid nose into stuffs that you're not involved in or in charge or have no business with. That would really make my life easier for the rest of my school term. And the best part is you can just pretend nothing happened. Asshole. I'm so sick of seeing your face in school everyday.

17th BIRFFFDAYYYE. :D

AHH bless me, birthday's on a weekend. A wonderful one indeed!
Went out with my old pals on sat, ate dinner and talked like the old dayys!! Southpark, and muds who go to wavehouse party and just walk about smoking. LOL. Hahahha. Miss my secondary days :( It was really more relaxed and enjoyable (maybe).
Had lunch on sunday with mummy and jiejie! Angus House ftw! Awesome, really. Followed by desserts and cake! Then went out again at night to Bon's house like the old times! Wanted to play ball but it rained. Watched iron man2 instead! That's like the first time stepping into a cinema after what, 5 months? Wth right! Yup, that's my jc life.Yours?
Can't believe the year passed so quickly! Holidays coming up, OT trip (YES ah, can't wait :D), and then mid years.. Screwed.

But thank God for everything! Knowing you has been a blessing and always will be.

Psalms 105: 1-4
"Give thanks to the Lord, call on his name; make known among the nations what he has done. Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts. Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice. Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always."

Words can't describe how grateful I am to you Lord. Thank you for making my life complete and purposeful. (:

Wonderful people, wonderful friends, wonderful family (:
Thank you Lord :D

Why should I feel worthless when Christ became sin on my behalf that I might become the righteousness of God in Him (2 Corinthians 5:21)?

Why should I feel like a failure when I am a conqueror in all things through Christ (Romans 8:37)?

Help me, Lord.

It sucks.

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

"I love you just as the Father loves me; remain in my love."

"I have told you all this, that my own joy may be in you and your joy may be complete."

Help me, Lord, for you are the only person who brings us real fullness of life.

TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
LAGGGGGGGGGGING BEHINDDDDDDD.

Kay, need to start studying! MUST.

House comm results tmr!! Cant wait. Get it over with man.

Hey guys! Just watched "Facing the Giants" for the second time! It's a really beautiful and touching movie about how a rugby coach's life (family, career, faith) is transformed as he believes in God in his most toughest times. You should watch it, seriously!!

I'm just amazed at how God uses the weak, the disadvantaged, to magnify and show his might and strength. Personally, this is something that is very touching because it's something I've experienced for myself. Ahhh, I can never explain it in detail how beautiful the movie is unless you watch it for yourself!

Things are getting better, thankfully. Everything. (:

"I am the living bread that came down from heaven."

Lord, thank you for all your blessings, for all that you've provided for me. You've once again shown me how privileged I am, and how wonderful you are through the perfect plan you've set for me. Help me not to rely on physical food but on that which is spiritual and comes from every word of the living God. Help me to hunger and thirst for your word as I seek meaning and consolation from it. Help me always to rely on your strength and put in my best in all that I do, as I face the giants in my life. Help me not fear also, but to put my every confidence in your will. Help me to trust in You and believe that whatever the outcome is, it is the best that You hope for us. Lastly, thank You Lord, for the pillars of strength and role models that You've placed in my life, from which I can seek comfort, solace and support, and learn from respectively. You simply amaze me O Lord, through the way you show your greatness, your might, your glory by using the seemingly weak, small and insignificant, albeit strong and faithful in heart, soul and spirit, around me. Help me to learn from these.

Amen.

Yea when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I...I look at you

When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...I look at you

"They had rowed about three or four miles, when they saw Jesus walking on the sea, and he was drawing near to the boat. They were frightened, and he said to them, 'It is me; don't be afraid.'

Lord, you're just so wonderful to show me comfort through your Word when I needed it most. Help me O Lord, not to be afraid. Give me the courage to go through it with You.

Confused, distraught.

There is no end to the gifts
God gives us in life.
The great act of faith lies
in coming to understand that -
even when we cannot see it.

"They filled large baskets with the scraps left over from the meal of five barley loaves."

Lord, help me to always recognise and appreciate your goodness in blessing us with the many gifts we don't deserve. At times, I may look towards what I do not have rather than what I have. When this happens, help me realize and offer you my thanksgiving. Amen.

Hello!! It's been ages, yeah. In short, JC is getting even more tiring but is still awesome, with PIs, projects, videos, speeches coming up.

Well, I'm now a provisional instructor of the 27th ODAC batch! Woots, my hard work paid off. But with every victory there's a loss. That's life, isn't it? Sometimes, things just don't go your way and you get disappointed. What is admirable is that you get to your feet, take a new breath of life, and move on. And that, my friends did, and earned my respect (: I'm behind you people all the way!!

Of course, there's a sad note too. I've been assigned as photog IC. And i just feel I'm more capable than that. I wanted land chief, but I just feel my workload has been really heavy, such that I didnt even tell my batch mates what I wanted. Sigh, I'm just afraid I may become distanced from the rest, and that shouldn't be the way.. I really felt I needed an explanation. I feel I'm worth more than that, given what I felt was a very good post-OLC evaluation given by my seniors, but given my position, how am I going to prove myself? I'm not involved in any organization or planning of events.. How am I even going to run for exco, if I don't even know what's the impression I give to my batch mates, or how much I need to prove myself which I dont even know whether I can given my role.

I don't want to portray myself as a complaisant type. Just suck it up then. And I'm trying not to think about it, maybe God's trying to give me a break. Yeah. I really need it. After all, we're a batch. Sigh.

The word of God, the presence of Jesus comes to us through every dimension of life. When we block any of those by pride or prejudice, we miss the opportunity to see the works of God in fresh new ways.

Romans 12

"Therefore,I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship."

In seeking God's righteousness and His kingdom, we have to offer our bodies as living sacrifices, that is, to give our lives completely to Him. This is not an easy thing to do, I can guarantee. Becoming a Christian is an ongoing relationship that has to be maintained. In so doing, we have to make many sacrifices such as abandoning our sinful activities, forsaking our self-centeredness and obsession in worldly issue, etc. I'm sure that each and every one of us has in our personal life testified to this difficulty in carrying out a Christian life. But rest assured that God has promised not to give us crosses that are to heavy to carry and that his peace flows through us as we suffer. It's a worthy cause, an experience that can transform your very life. In becoming what God has created us to be, we can find fulfillment and satisfaction, regadless of the costs.

Remember that we are taught, in the book of Matthew, to "seek the kindgom of God and his righteousness first, before all other things may be added unto us." At times, we can lose focus in life, and forget that we have as Christians a higher purpose in being God's followers. Pray, that we may be able to concentrate on that purpose and always remember to put God as first in our hearts.

Romans 12 also teaches us not to follow the ways of the world, but be "transformed by the renewing of our mind", as we strive to do God's will.

Lord, school has been busy and very tiring at times. In these moments, I admit I have neglected you and forgotten my place in this world. I ask for pardon and I pray that you bless me with the gifts you have equipped me with and help me to use them well in carrying out your will. Help me not to shift my gaze on you, and strengthen me, O Lord, that I may have the energy and spirit to obey your commands and be a living example of your love for us. We all have our own problems, Lord, I ask that you may help us to solve them accordingly. Help us to always remember that You are the Lord our God who never fails. Amen.

Hey guys! Yup that is my QT done after a longgg break. March hols went by quickly with house camp and ODAC camp. Both camps were great and fulfilling. New friends were made and it's just amazing how God place different people into our lives. I really hope that I'm able to make a small difference for the people around me.

Anywaysss, I'm really lagging behind for my studies and I've been sleeping alot during lectures and even tutorials. It's really bad. And tomorrow is ODAC JTS ( Junior Treat Senior) at New York2 !! YAY LOL. No, it's not exciting at all with the prospect of having a huge hole in our wallets at the end of the day! On top of that, there's still ODAC chalet + bbq on Friday and phoenix cheer JTS on Sunday. Hallelujah. LOL. But it's alright, it's gonna be a great time. Okay, I really need rest. Pray for me yea? Nights!

Hey people (:

It's been ages yea?
Hmm, school's been really hectic and tiring, seriously. Currently, I'm trying to juggle badminton, odac, house comm (and cheers) and my studies altogether. And now, I'm rushing through my stupid bio project. Haha, oh well. VOG is next friday! So that means I'll reach home at 10pm+ everyday from tomorrow onwards! Yay!

Right. On a lighter note, new friends are made everyday, and I've got the chance to grow closer with my classmates and other people.

Been sleeping in lectures all the time man. And I havent taken communion for 2 consecutive weeks! Omg. Coz I've been going for rites for confirmation and I didnt go for the second mass to take communion. Alright, I've to go for confession.

Sigh, my march hols are burned also. ODAC camp, house camp, and my badminton teacher is planning to get me to go for training in between the two camps (coz there's a badminton camp in between also). Great. Thank you, Miss Lee! Or whatever your name is, I forgot, sorry! Haha.

Chow!

Give me strength, Lord.

ODAC

Super tiring. 1st night, we went to pulau ubin and had a solo walk through the jungle. 2nd day was ubin expedition with checkpoints to reach, but the main part was that we had to carry our heavy bagpacks! Veryyyyy exhausting. And the girls in my team were strong (Y). We had field cooking session too, and the purple instant noodles we bought were really tasteless. Remember, dont but that brand of noodles : Koka ;) So, second night was concluded with a solo night. At first, the mini-tent was really reallllyyy horrible. Put anyone in there and he'll sweat like a dog. Luckily, the night became colder as time passed by and I managed to sleep. Yay. LOL. Hmm, Next day, we headed back to Singapore to kayak. Again, ultra draining. My partner was too tired on the return journey, so I was like, kayaking 2 worth of body weight. Buttt, camp was really awesome in the sense that we learnt alot of life skills and values like time management, responsibility. And we all learnt to cheer and motivate and care for others in times of need. Yup. All in all, this camp is the most physically demanding but also more importantly, the most fulfilling one. Alright, gonna sleep nowww, tmr's gotta wake up at 5.30am. Omg lah. So yea, night.

The start

Lessons started today. PE went first and i was told to leave school after the run to cut my hair by the PE teacher. LOL. Hate that guy. Haha. Maths were easy. Chemistry and biology were just introductory. Then came GP, woah, it was soporific. I slept in class and I bet the teacher noticed but was too kind in excusing me. Anyway, CCA havent started and I'm already feeling so tired. I'm running for house committee, ODAC, and interact club. God. Help me. So much things to do =/

VJC yea!

Pump it up!

Pump pump pump it up, VJ's gonna pump it up!
Shake shake shake it up, VJ's gonna shake it up!
Hype hype hype it up, VJ's gonna hype it up!
Pump it up shake it up hype it up!
Ohh yea!

Awesome man. Mass dance, tribal dance, and couple dance. Woots. LOL. Had fun, yup. I'm so gonna be an OGL myself next year manz. Hmmm, wet games tomorrow at ecp, looking forward to it!

Night!

VJC

VJCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC. Orientation (day 2 only thus far) rocked my ass off. Awesome. Incredible. Stunning. Enthusiastic. Hyper. Maniac. Ultimate.

Today..

I walked into a mall lavatory and saw a rugged-looking, tired old man mopping the floor. A lowly but honest job, all for the sake of earning a livelihood for survival. As more people strode into the toilet almost ruthelessly and without giving the slightest care that their footprints will add onto the old man's workload, the latter had no choice but to keep constantly cleaning away the marks left behind, using more effort with every swipe he made. Seeing the strain of resignation to fate on his face, I pitied him, for I could already conceive the kind of life he's going through - having to work and scrimp to feed himself, without any financial support from his family (if there's one in the first place). I wished I could help him in some way or another, perhaps just to help him mop the floor for that instance.



This is too common a scene. In fact, there's so much worse happenings around the world which we are oblivious to (or can't be bothered with), from the civil war in Chad (and many other countries in the past) to the massive, horribel earthquake that occured in Haiti. Of course, these are the large issues of the world. But such small commonly seen misfortunes that we see on the streets such as above can touch us real deep, teach us and make us realise many things in our own lives.



Perhaps he wanted to work for leisure but which son/daughter, if filial, would want his/her 70-year old parent to work outside, and in so doing put him on the risk of being hurt in case of a fall, over-exhaustion, etc?



I feel really blessed, as I look at my own life and at his. If more people can appreciate the little things in life they receive from God (or whoever in respect with their religion), then there'd be more contentment and less complaisance in this world.



I respect the old man, for his courage to embrace life rather than to lament, and his honesty in living with a simple job. If more people could have this kind of intrepidity, there'd be more acceptance in this world.



If more people could live their lives honestly, greedlessly and simply without any covetous desires, there'd be less unfortunate, distressing cases of drug-trafficking, prostitution, dealing of arms, thieving, power-seeking politics, fraud, war, etc.



Appreciate your life, for it's bestowed upon you with the highest honour by God himself.

Don't grieve or complain over the misfortunes in front of you in your lives, but appreciate that there's an old man who's undergoing more sufferings than you, and you may see life in a better light. Amen to that.

Matthew 6:33

"Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you."

Help me to remember, for it's not easy, not easy at all. You're our focus and axis in life, that should never change.

Save You

Take a breath

I pull myself together

Just another step until

I reach the door

You'll never know the way it

tears me up inside to see you

I wish that I could tell you something

and take it all away

-

(Chorus)

Sometimes I wish I could save you

And theres so many things

that I want you to know

I wont give up till its over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

-

When I hear your voice

It's drowning into whispers

You're just skin and bones

Theres nothing left to take

No matter what I do I

cant make you feel better

If only I could find the answer

To help me understand

-

(Chorus)

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That if you fall, stumble down

Ill pick you up off the ground

If you lose faith in you

Ill give you strength to pull through

Tell me you won't give up cause

Ill be waiting if you fall

Oh you know Ill be there for you

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(Ahahaha)

If only I could find the answer

To take it all away

-

Sometimes I wish I could save you

And theres so many things

that I want you to know

I wont give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know (Oooh)

I wish I could save youI want you to know (Ohohh)

I wish I could save you (ohh)

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I wish I could save you

I want you to know

I wish I could save you

-

I wish I could tell you something and take it all away..

"Oh" levels...

English - A2
Mathematics - A1
Additional Mathematics - A1
Physics - A1
Chemistry - A1
Biology - A1
Combined Humanities - A1
Chinese - A1
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Higher Chinese - C6 LOLOLOLOLOL. I passed! Oh my God, you're amazing.

Anyway, I received my results today at 2pm... So here they are. My net score is 3 points.

I just feel God is so great. I mean, I've to admit that I feel a tinge of regret for my English, because I really and earnestly expected an A1 for it. But what's done is done, and that's my message for my friends out there! It's all by God's grace, period. I know some are feeling disappointed, some are on cloud nine, whilst others are feeling they could have done better. Well, the main thing is really bearing the right attitude towards your results. And I'm saying this from not from a 6-pointer's perspective but from that of a normal, average person. I've seen friends who complain about getting 7 points instead of a perfect score, while others who got 14+ points but embrace their results in stride and in thanksgiving for God. That is the kind of friend whom I have deep respect for. It's not easy, I understand, but sometimes, that just happens in life. It's never an easy journey. However, the one thing we can do to keep ourselves motivated to continue in our journey of life is to have a positive attitude towards the uncontrolled happenings in life and those which are, to some extent, in our grasp.

I'm very sure that there's no success in life which is attained, out of laziness or without substantial effort. There is no such thing as short-cuts or last minute effort formulas to success. If you feel really depressed or unsatisfied with your results, please try to look back and reflect on your studying efforts. Were they sufficient or consistent enough? If they're not, then there's really nobody to blame but yourself. If you keep playing for the 2 years of your time without giving a care about Os then you're asking for it, really. But if you truly slogged your head off, sacrificed countless of sleepless nights - and meals - but still achieved results which are undeserved then I've got nothing to say, although I daresay that such a case is extremely rare, or happens once in a blue moon, I should say. If it really is the case, then I guess it's just God's plans for you. Only he has the answers...

Then again, should we not keep moving forwards in life? Life's about making choices, the right ones. You can either give up now and think that life sucks or keep pressing on and take a second chance. And I'm certain that God will bless those who choose the latter. And you have my deepest respect and support as well.

To my dear friends, I love you and I pray that whatever you may be feeling right now, God may be able to overwhelm you with a sense of contentment and a spirit of moving ahead in life. Give yourself a second chance.

To Secondary 3s, all the best for this year. And one lesson to be concluded is : Be consistent. Full stop.

Dear Mother,

Please forgive me, for the many times...
I've made you cry;
I've failed you;
I've disobeyed you;
I've gone against your will;
I've been disrespectful;
I've made you tired;
I've made you lose hope;
I've not been a comfort when you needed me most;
I've not been filial;
I've not met your expectations;
I've not loved you enough.

Please understand, that...
I'm not a robot;
I'm not a perfect person;
I'm not the impeccable, wonderful, extraordinary child that you always wish me to be;
I'm not able to reach all your expectations;
I'm not an ingrate.

But, please realize, that...
I'm a human being;
I'm just another average person who makes mistakes naturally and unconsciously;
I understand your concerns as a mother;
I respect your status, authority and will;
I am your son;
And I will always to the best of my ability honour and obey you.

I implore you to be forgiving, accepting, tolerant, and most of all, understanding. I need you to to lower the vessel of pride that you bear out of your authority and accept me for who I am - that I am not perfect and I can never meet up to all of your ambitious, inconceivable expectations.

I may not seem loving and tender in your eyes nor very expressive of my love for you in my actions and speech. But I love you and sis very much, and I really pray that God will one day open your eyes and illuminate my feelings and thoughts to you. I pray one day, we may understand each other better. You may not see this, but I pray God may somehow relay this message to you.

P.S. I love you.

The Kill.

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside!
Finally found myself!
Fighting for a chance I know now,
This is who I really am!