VJC

VJCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC. Orientation (day 2 only thus far) rocked my ass off. Awesome. Incredible. Stunning. Enthusiastic. Hyper. Maniac. Ultimate.

Today..

I walked into a mall lavatory and saw a rugged-looking, tired old man mopping the floor. A lowly but honest job, all for the sake of earning a livelihood for survival. As more people strode into the toilet almost ruthelessly and without giving the slightest care that their footprints will add onto the old man's workload, the latter had no choice but to keep constantly cleaning away the marks left behind, using more effort with every swipe he made. Seeing the strain of resignation to fate on his face, I pitied him, for I could already conceive the kind of life he's going through - having to work and scrimp to feed himself, without any financial support from his family (if there's one in the first place). I wished I could help him in some way or another, perhaps just to help him mop the floor for that instance.



This is too common a scene. In fact, there's so much worse happenings around the world which we are oblivious to (or can't be bothered with), from the civil war in Chad (and many other countries in the past) to the massive, horribel earthquake that occured in Haiti. Of course, these are the large issues of the world. But such small commonly seen misfortunes that we see on the streets such as above can touch us real deep, teach us and make us realise many things in our own lives.



Perhaps he wanted to work for leisure but which son/daughter, if filial, would want his/her 70-year old parent to work outside, and in so doing put him on the risk of being hurt in case of a fall, over-exhaustion, etc?



I feel really blessed, as I look at my own life and at his. If more people can appreciate the little things in life they receive from God (or whoever in respect with their religion), then there'd be more contentment and less complaisance in this world.



I respect the old man, for his courage to embrace life rather than to lament, and his honesty in living with a simple job. If more people could have this kind of intrepidity, there'd be more acceptance in this world.



If more people could live their lives honestly, greedlessly and simply without any covetous desires, there'd be less unfortunate, distressing cases of drug-trafficking, prostitution, dealing of arms, thieving, power-seeking politics, fraud, war, etc.



Appreciate your life, for it's bestowed upon you with the highest honour by God himself.

Don't grieve or complain over the misfortunes in front of you in your lives, but appreciate that there's an old man who's undergoing more sufferings than you, and you may see life in a better light. Amen to that.

Matthew 6:33

"Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you."

Help me to remember, for it's not easy, not easy at all. You're our focus and axis in life, that should never change.

Save You

Take a breath

I pull myself together

Just another step until

I reach the door

You'll never know the way it

tears me up inside to see you

I wish that I could tell you something

and take it all away

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(Chorus)

Sometimes I wish I could save you

And theres so many things

that I want you to know

I wont give up till its over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

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When I hear your voice

It's drowning into whispers

You're just skin and bones

Theres nothing left to take

No matter what I do I

cant make you feel better

If only I could find the answer

To help me understand

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(Chorus)

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That if you fall, stumble down

Ill pick you up off the ground

If you lose faith in you

Ill give you strength to pull through

Tell me you won't give up cause

Ill be waiting if you fall

Oh you know Ill be there for you

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(Ahahaha)

If only I could find the answer

To take it all away

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Sometimes I wish I could save you

And theres so many things

that I want you to know

I wont give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know (Oooh)

I wish I could save youI want you to know (Ohohh)

I wish I could save you (ohh)

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I wish I could save you

I want you to know

I wish I could save you

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I wish I could tell you something and take it all away..

"Oh" levels...

English - A2
Mathematics - A1
Additional Mathematics - A1
Physics - A1
Chemistry - A1
Biology - A1
Combined Humanities - A1
Chinese - A1
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Higher Chinese - C6 LOLOLOLOLOL. I passed! Oh my God, you're amazing.

Anyway, I received my results today at 2pm... So here they are. My net score is 3 points.

I just feel God is so great. I mean, I've to admit that I feel a tinge of regret for my English, because I really and earnestly expected an A1 for it. But what's done is done, and that's my message for my friends out there! It's all by God's grace, period. I know some are feeling disappointed, some are on cloud nine, whilst others are feeling they could have done better. Well, the main thing is really bearing the right attitude towards your results. And I'm saying this from not from a 6-pointer's perspective but from that of a normal, average person. I've seen friends who complain about getting 7 points instead of a perfect score, while others who got 14+ points but embrace their results in stride and in thanksgiving for God. That is the kind of friend whom I have deep respect for. It's not easy, I understand, but sometimes, that just happens in life. It's never an easy journey. However, the one thing we can do to keep ourselves motivated to continue in our journey of life is to have a positive attitude towards the uncontrolled happenings in life and those which are, to some extent, in our grasp.

I'm very sure that there's no success in life which is attained, out of laziness or without substantial effort. There is no such thing as short-cuts or last minute effort formulas to success. If you feel really depressed or unsatisfied with your results, please try to look back and reflect on your studying efforts. Were they sufficient or consistent enough? If they're not, then there's really nobody to blame but yourself. If you keep playing for the 2 years of your time without giving a care about Os then you're asking for it, really. But if you truly slogged your head off, sacrificed countless of sleepless nights - and meals - but still achieved results which are undeserved then I've got nothing to say, although I daresay that such a case is extremely rare, or happens once in a blue moon, I should say. If it really is the case, then I guess it's just God's plans for you. Only he has the answers...

Then again, should we not keep moving forwards in life? Life's about making choices, the right ones. You can either give up now and think that life sucks or keep pressing on and take a second chance. And I'm certain that God will bless those who choose the latter. And you have my deepest respect and support as well.

To my dear friends, I love you and I pray that whatever you may be feeling right now, God may be able to overwhelm you with a sense of contentment and a spirit of moving ahead in life. Give yourself a second chance.

To Secondary 3s, all the best for this year. And one lesson to be concluded is : Be consistent. Full stop.

Dear Mother,

Please forgive me, for the many times...
I've made you cry;
I've failed you;
I've disobeyed you;
I've gone against your will;
I've been disrespectful;
I've made you tired;
I've made you lose hope;
I've not been a comfort when you needed me most;
I've not been filial;
I've not met your expectations;
I've not loved you enough.

Please understand, that...
I'm not a robot;
I'm not a perfect person;
I'm not the impeccable, wonderful, extraordinary child that you always wish me to be;
I'm not able to reach all your expectations;
I'm not an ingrate.

But, please realize, that...
I'm a human being;
I'm just another average person who makes mistakes naturally and unconsciously;
I understand your concerns as a mother;
I respect your status, authority and will;
I am your son;
And I will always to the best of my ability honour and obey you.

I implore you to be forgiving, accepting, tolerant, and most of all, understanding. I need you to to lower the vessel of pride that you bear out of your authority and accept me for who I am - that I am not perfect and I can never meet up to all of your ambitious, inconceivable expectations.

I may not seem loving and tender in your eyes nor very expressive of my love for you in my actions and speech. But I love you and sis very much, and I really pray that God will one day open your eyes and illuminate my feelings and thoughts to you. I pray one day, we may understand each other better. You may not see this, but I pray God may somehow relay this message to you.

P.S. I love you.

The Kill.

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside!
Finally found myself!
Fighting for a chance I know now,
This is who I really am!